My Belief Change From Years of Spirit Work- Blog About The Nonsense New Age And True DIvination Work

This past week was really good. I got out for a bit on Thursday and spent a lot of time painting. I finished up the three tarot cards I posted about earlier (Lovers, Strength and Chariot), and made some progress in the food department.

I am going to be working on some other card decks for this coming week. (playing cards cartomancy style, and my original first attempt as well as a new one that I have yet to speak about. I don’t know how much I am going to be showing on the blog, but I do hope to get one or two progress shots of some of the cards. I do like to keep a surprise or two for the people who purchase a card deck.

Readings this week will be from the “Abstracted Divination” deck available on This abstract deck seems to work well with me and was a part of my major work on the blog for a long while. I will also pull some from the deck featured last week – The “Minor Healing Oracle”. Both decks were worked on at the same time. I really do push myself when I want to.

I deleted a ton of old posts on the blog to keep it running smoother and to clear the energy of past badness. I have been clearing a lot out of the way in my energy field these past few months. There is a lot of old residual energy from my supposed “awakening” (I’ll let you make your own judgements). I do feel I have been pushed through a wormhole of sorts figuratively speaking.

I have been coming to the realization that there is a LOT of hogwash out there about spiritual people trying to be spiritual, but ending up causing more harm than good, myself included. I read a lot of blogs out there and a lot of channeled messages. I decided that there was a lot of the same thing- people talking about the “awakening” and “ascension”. They all always point to it being soon, or coming almost here and I decided I was tired of waiting for the “big bang” of sorts.

At some point, a person has to come down, get work done, and be a part of this world. To function in society, there are a lot of ideas that a person has to put away in order to be able to coexist with the rest of the population.

I found that a lot of it was me being deluded.

It didn’t help that there are so many sites and people out there who espouse being able to communicate with spirit, but only added paranoid rantings and ravings about how some major government has been lying to us or how some major atrocity has happened, or is happening to us.

Again, at some point, a person has to put down the fear inducers and get on with life.

That isn’t to say I don’t still have my beliefs, or that I don’t still have faith- because I do. I just think I am being a bit more realistic when I say- There may be a change happening here on earth and there may be aliens that want to connect with us or there may be angels and spirit guides to help us, but none of the fear that so many people put into it is necessary.

Focus on the problems and the problems get worse.

For a long, long time, I was severely paranoid almost unable to function. I don’t want that anymore. Connecting with heaven while meditating and while making art without the fear has led me to this point.

I was so overwhelmed with information that was just ludicrous and outlandish and a lot of nonsense just to keep me holding onto the people writing it and the idea that some huge awakening was going to happen at any minute. I guess there is change. Change happens. Change is normal. There always is change. But that doesn’t mean that some moojoo from space is going to come down and suck us all up, or that Jesus is going to come in a spaceship and heal us all from slumber land.

It means that things are happening as they always have, but maybe from a different point of view. Maybe from the point of view of a modern society with all sorts of new technology and new ideas that allow us to connect with each other in a new way.

Now I’m not saying I don’t believe tarot cards are a great way to connect with spirit, or that spirit is made up. What I am saying is that spirit exists, but without all the extra nonsense of some huge event happening. Yes, people are changing, but we always have been. That is called evolution. And evolution takes time. Many years. Hundreds of years. Sometimes there is a breakthrough, but that happens in time. Breakthroughs are normal. That doesn’t mean that everyone is going to have a breakthrough and become “ascended beings” right away.


That happens in movies.

I hope I have not offended anyone, but when it comes to spirit communication- fear is not a necessity. True heaven would not keep us hanging on baited breath or fill our heads with something that will happen. Spirit tells you things you need to know now and with a satisfaction that you are loved and filled with good joojoo vibes. Now.

True spirit communication fills you with healing energy that makes you realize there is nothing to fear, that you don’t have to wait until some future time to be all that you truly are. Heaven sees us all as perfect already. Will we have a breakthrough?


But so what?

Tim Edwin B.

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