A Sort Of Personal Reading About Social Anxiety

I pulled some cards from ‘Lenormand Oracle’ by Laura Tuan. I am not sure if I am allowed to show photos of the cards I pulled, so I will quote the Title page : “All rights reserved. No part of this book and of this deck may be used or reproduced in any manner whatsoever, including Internet usage, without written permission from Lo Scarabeo s.r.l, except in case of brief quotations embodied in critical articles and reviews.

I am not sure if this post is a critical article or review. Perhaps if I am critical of this deck, it will work better.

I will just type up my interpretation of the cards, rather than show them. Although, maybe I could sneak in a critical remark here and there. (just kidding)

The cards seem to speak to me personally. They all point to getting out of the house more and traveling or seeing more of the world than I tend to do. This is a point I have been struggling with for a very long time. It hurts to even think about going to the corner store.

I know I need to clear all sorts of energies and fears and all sorts of worries and trauma. I have been working on this in meditation and several techniques for clearing energies, including EFT (Emotional Freedom Technique) ( also called ‘tapping’) and reiki (which I give to myself). I know there are all sorts of other techniques and I may try exercise soon. Better self care would help too. I seem to sidestep a lot of the boring mundane everyday things that need to be taken care of. Like getting to the store to buy some more food. (That’s another story)

Anyhow, maybe this post’s main point is to introduce some coping techniques which I use to deal with my anxiety and worries and all of that. The cards also seem to point out that I have pretty much everything I need right here in the house, and this is something that came up in meditation last night and previously for me.

All I could ever want or need is easily deliverable to my front door, especially when I had Amazon Prime. I can order groceries, home repair items, and clothes or anything else. It is so easy for me to just stay in and let everyone else take care of the going about. I know I need to work on this still, but amazon is almost an enabler for me.

That being said, I decided not to renew my amazon prime membership for a while, not only due to the cost, but to try to force myself to leave the house for things I need. It will motivate me because I don’t want to pay shipping costs that would normally be covered by Amazon’s ‘Prime membership’. I think the world needs more people who are able to be mobile anyhow.

This is quite a task for me because I do not have a vehicle, and I don’t really have anywhere to go, but I need to force myself to get over this big hangup. I need to find a reason to get out.

It is a definite block, as is shown in the cards. I don’t know how many of you out there are in a similar conundrum, but I take it there are quite a few people who avoid going outdoors in this world.

The cards seem to point out that it also involves a sort of laziness that I have about going places. I like to sit back and relax and listen to “chillout music” like drumming and flute music and the like. This is a form of avoidance because the world out there is not so peaceful. Staying in and feeling divine connection is one thing, but when it hinders growth that creates strength of character and mobility, it becomes a crutch of sorts.

It would be nice to be able to stay in and disregard the rest of the world all the time, but it is not very healthy. And if I am to be a success, it will require me to push myself out of my comfort zone.

That is all I have for now, I think. I hope this serves some sort of help for you. It seems mostly about me, but sometimes when I read other peoples’ stories, I feel it carries a deeper message for whoever reads it.

Thanks,

Tim Edwin B.

http://www.timebush.com