Spring is well under way and summer is happening soon. The month of June holds the start of summer and my birthday. It feels good to be me now. Much more than in the past. I feel more optimistic and more grounded at the same time. I still have a lot of anxiety I have to work through, but I am making progress in a lot of areas of my life. It is like the trials of the past were preparing me for now.
I have a lot on my plate in terms of my projects. I love what I do and I feel good knowing I am being productive and getting things done. I feel good knowing that I always have my art work and always have some way of making something new. I enjoy this work, now more than ever. All of the meditation and reiki and taking things slower has allowed me to gain a new perspective on life- one I never imagined I would have. I feel like I am making progress every day and I don’t know what to make of it. It is like I am supercharged with success in my projects and my work- but not too much to bear. I am able to get through things I never thought I could.
I have been busy working on my tarot deck. With only 16 more cards to ink and scan, and not too much work to finish coloring, I am really proud of myself and how far I have come on this deck I didn’t even know I was going to make. I feel freer in my expression with this style of work and I am glad to finally have a way to bring my own personal style of artwork into the sixth sensory format. It is what I truly wanted with this work and I finally feel like I have a good grasp on it.
I have been practicing making video readings and I hope to be able to bring these to my YouTube channel soon. I have to work through the process of reading out loud on camera while getting used to all the technical aspects that go into making and uploading videos. I am getting past my shyness and working with my skill level and working past blocks. I feel any day now, I will start posting videos.
I have a lot of projects that will be finishing in June if all goes as planned and I hope to be able to put a good foot forward with them. I have been in development seemingly forever and it feels good to be putting final touches on several things that a year ago, I wouldn’t believe I was able to make. All the hard work feels like it is finally paying off, even though there has not been many signs from me here. I do feel like I may be able to get on with life and make a living from my work. Of course, that is not all in my hands. It is up to how people perceive me and whether or not I make an impact on people’s lives, but I feel I am getting work done that was tough to get through before.
There is a lot to work on, so I will try to get some breaks in so as not to burn out. That has been a problem for me in the past. Burning out is not fun. There is something to develop there- taking time to appreciate the steps I am taking and not forcing something that is not ready. A lot of the times in the past, I would put too much pressure on my work to make an impression or to pay the bills. I would force my work to make something happen for me, but now, I am appreciating the work I get to do. I am taking better care to slow down or at least go at a pace that feels comfortable to me. There is a fine line to balance here and I am learning the ropes.
I hope you will all enjoy what I do as much as I do,but I’d be happy just to make some sort of positive impression on the world.
Thanks for taking the time to read my blog and thanks for being there to write to. It has been fun.
Tim E Bush
Please think of checking out my new coloring book. I am already at work on the second volume.